Rustiness and The Blank Page

September 30, 2013 | Leave a Comment

So here I am again, after years of blogging hiatus, sitting at the keyboard with an urge to communicate but not knowing what I want to say or how to say it. The urge is just there.

Blank Page-phobia is there, too, and as I’ve learned in the painting studio, the best thing to do to defeat that beast is to make a mark – no matter what it is. That will break the ice and the rest flows easier from that point.

Or it is supposed to anyway.

So with that in mind, I’ll make a mark. I’ll share a quote with you – a long passage, actually – one that has been a point of much pondering for me over the past few years.

“People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.

A soul mate’s purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master…”

– Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love

According to this definition, I have met dozens of soul mates in my lifetime. I wonder how many times I’ve met a soul mate and wasn’t ready to recognize them, so they went away? I wonder when the next one will appear?

I wonder if I am ready now to have more walls torn down and to be smacked awake, shown my obstacles and how I get in my own way? I wonder what further transformation is coming…

I wonder if blogging is part of that process?